& know that if i knew all the answers i would not hold them from you.

when your mind is a mess, so is mine.
i cant sleep,
cause it hurts when i think.
my thoughts arent at peace with the plans that we make,
chances we take,
theyre not yours & not mine - theres waves that can break all the words that we said & the words that we mean -
words can fall short.
cant see the unseen
cause the world is awake for someones sake now.
please close your eyes woman, please get some sleep.

she was only in it for the rain

If you marri ed the perso n you last texte d, what would your last name be?
ally mullally! how terrifying.

What did you do today ?
broke it in dancing my little tonedeaf heart out to tigerbeat at moe, im serious: i drank my whiskey out of a flask in the bathroom at neumos. spent the early morning hours at forests place on pike for a. his 27th bday, & b. seattles 117th bday, quibbled with the boy who walked me home for school, who i happen to think looks like frank from donnie darko. international relations. lunchtime with my babyhearts. polisci. ran into bachar. three hour glacial geology lecture. cal anderson park. me mathew & toby went back to my place after the market & actually baked some serious ghiardelli brownies & drank cheap beer. business date with leo & forrest (with 2 r's.) was interviewed later in a warehouse for the job & start tomorrow, then offered a cup from the shops communal keg. walked back up the hill & watched greys anatomy while on the phone with andrew which was my idea of "staying in to write some banging papers." now im in bed reading books. two hours left of the day. one hour until my boy tim gets home & we start all over again.

What kind of mood are you in?
sleeeeepy as hell.

Do you feel awkwa rd when stran gers say hi to you?
no im all about the hellos.

Are you talle r than your mom?
nah i dont think so.

Is anyth ing upset ting you right now?

What' s the farth est away from home you have ever been?
when i went back to new york.

Do you hate being alone ?
this life is a lonely one.

Who was the last perso n you cried in front of?

What' s on your sched ule for tomor row?
class. more class. snowboard connection! presidential debate @ redwood.

If you could have one perso n with you right now, who would it be?
i mean, cmon.

Where are you?
buried in our nine & a quarter blankets.

Is tomor row going to be a good day?
please let it?

Did you kiss or hug anyon e today ?
goddamn i doled out hugs today. never go easy on the hugs.

Where would you like to live?
maybe the sixth floor.

What do you want to be when you grow up?
remembered as a passing thought, but fondly

What song makes you cry?
it changes with the day, you know?
  • Current Music
    "the girl"


last night was decent,
no absurd,
glacier geology lecture with mathew,
town hall debate at moe bar,
trading insulting text messages with papabear ("johnny is schooling barry!" yeah the f right),
via tribulani pizza,
pregaming at home with my roommonster,
skittle shots on pike,
endless rounds of victorious bowling at the garage,
epic amounts of whiskey,

tomorrow: paul baribeau at some punk house
friday: sunrise with james (back from alaska!) , polar bear club at king cobra
saturday: useless bay, whidbey island

sunday happy hour at the cha & spring awakening next weekkkk....fuck this world i love it

"oh thats right; you golf."

to the drifters! in hopes that our paths cross again. to the homesick! home is when we do meet again.

our histories, our futures, our foundations, are hope. it's a way to never forget.

i'll say goodbye. and hope never to mean it. our love and our hope. no nation or state can contain it.

if you call me up drunk, at four in the morning, no matter the timezones or state lines away. i'll be on buslines or burning up phone cards. just like i lived eight blocks away.

"this is our lives now." so be it.
  • Current Music
    response to griot. defiance, ohio

youre not a girl; youre a town.

what a month this will end up being.

i reunited with maggie this evening on the hill. so, to recap, everyone who was once in this city is askew - james is in ketchickan, alaska; nikki is in arkansas, & then tahoe for the winter; chandler ended up in southern california; chris moved down to portland; erik & those bros are in south america for the year; david is touring the southwest united states with his band; john is in michigan;but in my web, i caught my two best friends. so really, i couldnt ask for more.

tomorrow is the first day of the rest of our lives, yeah?
  • Current Music
    war elephant